Will this one one of the most articulate and earnest expression of a journey through depression and anxiety that still continues. I was a boots on the ground suicide specialist for 20+ years and I discovered that people killed themselves not from depression, but from des-pair. You can read more at: https://medium.com/@mgoulston/why-people-kill-themselves-its-not-depression-44113406ac79 . And I hope it and the attached resources may be helpful.