Tom, I’m very sorry to hear that. Here is a suggestion I’d like you to try on faith. Go to this tweet: https://twitter.com/MarkGoulston/status/960916544946544641. It is a supportive, compassionate community for people who have known people who died by suicide or who themselves have made attempts. When you go there, start giving compassionate responses to some of the people who share their heart wrenching comments. Doing that will cause them to appreciate you and receiving their thanks for your caring may help your feelings or worthlessness. Just give it a try. Take good care.