Thank you for sharing this.
What people who have fortunately never been suicidal may not realize is that death may feel compassionate to a pain of hopelessness, helplessness, powerlessness, worthlessness, meaninglessness and pointlessness that won’t go away.
In some of those instances suicide takes that pain away just as the Sirens call to sailors offered to take their painful struggles away.
I remember one of my suicidal patient’s telling me, “If I didn’t have my suicidality (a way out of the pain), I would have killed myself a long time ago.”
What sometimes eases suicidality is “feeling felt” which is different than “feeling understood.”
When you’re feeling understood it can still feel like a chasm between you and others that you cannot cross.
When you’re feeling felt, it can feel that you’re being heard and felt IN your hurt WITH you. And when that happens the des-pair of not being able to pair with hope, worth, etc and other reasons to live which causes you to pair with death to take the pain away lessens when you can let go of death and pair with feeling felt.